2008-05-16
5/16/08
If you heard rumblings coming from SW Montana yesterday, it wasn't thunder. It was me...giving myself a good talking to.
I've been in a bit of a funk for weeks. Yesterday I finally got sick and tired of myself.
One of the things I like most about myself is that I don't take things personally. Lately, every word or deed seems to be said/done with the sole purpose of hurting or irritating me.
So this morning when I began what has become my habitual "poor me" mindset, I mentally slapped myself silly.
Today is Friday. It's against the law to be blue and funky on a Friday.
I shall not:
1. Look beyond words said to me to find the hidden insult or hurtful words.
2. Be short tempered.
3. Sigh.
4. Take on other's sadness and grief as if it were my own.
5. Hold onto my sadness and grief as if it were a badge of honor.
6. Roll my eyes and mumble under my breath.
Today I shall:
1. Laugh and be as silly as I can get away with.
2. Stop focusing on what isn't and celebrate what is.
3. Be compassionate with others.
4. Accept that others live their lives the way THEY wish to live their lives.
5. Live my life the way I wish to live my life.
6. Instead of being quiet and unreachable, I will chatterbox until Mary says "Dear God in Heaven, will you be quiet!" (This is a personal joke between the two of us.)
Today I will not allow this habit of being blue...searching for reasons to be blue...to continue.
And wear jeans and sneakers...because it's blue jeans Friday.