2009-03-26
3/26/09
Betrayal by one of my closest friends has sent my heart and mind topsy turvy. I told her "If you do this, it will be the end of us."
She did and it was.
She keeps calling, trying to get me to agree that what she did was the right thing to do at the moment.
It wasn't.
The first time she called she said, "I just want to see you in order to have a proper goodbye. Too many people have left your life without you having the chance to say goodbye."
At first I appreciated this. Now after more phone calls, I see it for what it is.
A crock of shit.
I don't have many "real life" friends. This one was very special to me. I trusted her in a way I've not trusted many people in my life.
She took that trust and used it against my family. I'm dumbfounded at her behavior. I can hear the quiver of tension in her voice as she tries to put us back where we were before.
There is no going back. I'm normally a very forgiving person. I make mistakes all the time myself.
What she did crossed the line.
The line of trust. Without trust, there is no hope of friendship.